Observation – Workplace Conversation

This conversation chokes me! Every word is a knot stuck in my throat. Every thought about every next sentence is another noose tightening around my neck. I am blacking out in my interest for you and your existence. A necessary automation guides me through the motions, the facial expressions and nods in all the right places, my dead eyes hidden behind dissembling smiles. I never set out to deceive but inanity and utter dullness take hold and lead me like so many counted sheep to sleep with my eyes open till you leave and the nightmare is over. But don’t feel bad, almost every conversation in the workplace is the same. It ain’t personal.